There was a very unexpected death in my family yesterday, a suicide.

It has left me dumbfounded and while we weren't close - I'm no less devastated by the act.

We were the same age, in fact we went to nursery school together. It pains me to think of the despair and desolation required to commit such a final, tragic act.

Forgive if you find I'm not really here and just going through the motions...I'm a bit shellshocked.